I find myself happy and sad at the same time these past few days, and I just don’t understand why. I feel like I’m moving on, but I want to go back, back to when I was happy with him, with Peter. I just can’t seem to let go of my past. It seems impossible to forget how much he meant to me. It would be nice if there was a switch to turn off my feelings for him, but that’s not how life works.

I’m working to realize we had good times together, but they are in the past and sometimes people aren’t meant to be in your life forever. I’m trying to look on the positive side (which is abnormal for me) and know that I’ve learned a lot from my relationship with him. So even though it didn’t last with Peter, I will find someone who is  better for me in the future.